So I think I was off on my last post.... I said twenty days but it was actually 21.
Yesterday I had an appointment with my favorite person, Bonnie (she’s awesome). She listened to his heartbeat and said he’s still got great oxygen flow. His heart rate was 150! Then she checked and I am 2 cm dilated! Yay! She told me I could stay at 2 cm for a while. I don’t care though, at least something is happening! I really feel like it’s going to be soon though. I am still having a lot of contractions and last night was the first time that they were bad enough to actually wake me up. I think he should come this weekend/next week lol. I’m ready and I think he’s ready too. Every time I have a contraction he goes nuts...poor little guy.
I still have a few things left to do that I have purposed in my mind to accomplish this weekend…
1. Finish folding his clothes
2. Finish packing the hospital bag
3. Hang the rest of the stuff on the walls in his room
4. Put the stroller in the trunk
Then we will be finished and officially ready :)
Last night Danny and I stopped at the grocery store to pick up some things for the Youth Fall Harvest Party tonight. While we were there I ran into someone who used to work out at Curves. She is my age and we always got along really good. She has a little boy now who is almost two and is so cute. I had talked to her right after he was born and she told me she was a stay at home mom and loving it. I asked her yesterday if she was still at home and she said, “Oh yeah, I wouldn’t have it any other way.” I thought about her and others who have been given the opportunity and it touched me. God continues to show me his love and mercy through others. Just when I need uplifted and some encouragement, it came. The song Nothing Is Impossible has really been on my heart all morning. What he’s done for others He can do for me. We serve an incredible God who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think (Ephesians 3:20). His love is never ending and His faithfulness is overwhelming to me.
Nothing is impossible when you trust in God
Nothing is impossible when you lean upon His Word
It is no secret what God can do
What He’s done for others, He’ll do the same for you
Nothing is impossible when you trust in God
Friday, October 9, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
20 Days
Twenty????? That seems so close. God knew I needed that feeling today. I have not slept at all the past few nights and my hands just ACHE non-stop. And if those annoyances weren’t enough, the contractions seem to get worse and worse. I feel like this will never end. But then I look at how many days are left and I’m like, I can do this for another 20 days if I have to. I know though that tonight when I can’t sleep (again) I will be done and want him out now lol.
I was supposed to have a dr appt today but they called and rescheduled for tomorrow. I PRAY that when I get there they will tell me that I’m dilated. I need to see some progress lol. The one positive thing about going tomorrow is I get to see my favorite midwife, Bonnie.
Gotta keep it short today because I have to go work in the library in a few minutes but how can I close this without giving God praise? For His goodness and His mercy…for this beautiful day and even the yummy lunch I had lol. He knows our desires! I can’t wait until He works out the largest desire of my heart. It burns within me and gives me joy. When I think about the blessed opportunity that could be afforded to me I am overwhelmed! I know He’ll work it out and I’m patiently waiting to see His beautiful ways of unfolding things. He is good.
I was supposed to have a dr appt today but they called and rescheduled for tomorrow. I PRAY that when I get there they will tell me that I’m dilated. I need to see some progress lol. The one positive thing about going tomorrow is I get to see my favorite midwife, Bonnie.
Gotta keep it short today because I have to go work in the library in a few minutes but how can I close this without giving God praise? For His goodness and His mercy…for this beautiful day and even the yummy lunch I had lol. He knows our desires! I can’t wait until He works out the largest desire of my heart. It burns within me and gives me joy. When I think about the blessed opportunity that could be afforded to me I am overwhelmed! I know He’ll work it out and I’m patiently waiting to see His beautiful ways of unfolding things. He is good.
Monday, October 5, 2009
23 Days
Still no Dallas *sigh* but he has to come in the next month lol. So, that’s a relief. I have a doctor appointment on Wednesday, hoping they’ll be able to give me some idea of whether it’s sooner or later. They already told me they thought it would be “sooner” but you know how that goes. I think they just try to get your hopes up sometimes. I can’t decide what I’m looking forward to most about not being pregnant….sleeping on my stomach, having feeling in my hands again, not feeling the bathroom is my second home, or not being so swollen. I think I really just want Dallas. I want to hold him and see him. That's what I'm looking forward to the most.
This weekend we got a lot accomplished (YAY!). We finished running errands which took almost all day Saturday. We got the car seat all hooked up in our car, it looks so cute! Then last night we got one wall in his room finished. We put up wooden letters that we spray painted black. They letters spell out his name. It looks so good. Even better than what I was expecting. All that’s left to do is to finish folding his clothes and put them away. It will be so nice to be 100% finished!
This morning I had a seriously awesome experience. This whole weekend I was feeling slightly discouraged. I felt like things weren’t really coming together for me to be able to stay home. I started doubting and trying to take things into my own hands, thinking “Oh, maybe I could do this….or that.” And of course, no matter how I looked at it, it really wouldn’t work and the things that seemed to work, defeated the purpose. This morning I woke up so extremely depressed. The discouragement from the weekend had grown and I could no longer see God’s hand in anything. I got myself up and got ready. I was downstairs making our lunch for today and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I had not felt so down in such a long time. I asked the Lord, “Why? I don’t want to feel this way but I can’t see any solution.” On our way to work a beautiful spirit came over me and I have no doubt in my mind that what came over me was not from God himself. He reminded me of what Karissa said in service last night, about His eye being on the sparrow. How much more does He care for us? He reminded me that even though I have been drawing closer to Him that I have developed a spirit of contentment and that I should not be content with where I am in my relationship with Him, that He wants to be even closer to me. And finally, He reminded me that I have brought this discouragement on myself by doubting Him. That He is in control and He is working. I cannot express the feeling of relief and joy that came over me. He is truly amazing and His mercies are new each morning. I am in awe. Oh, how He loves us.
This weekend we got a lot accomplished (YAY!). We finished running errands which took almost all day Saturday. We got the car seat all hooked up in our car, it looks so cute! Then last night we got one wall in his room finished. We put up wooden letters that we spray painted black. They letters spell out his name. It looks so good. Even better than what I was expecting. All that’s left to do is to finish folding his clothes and put them away. It will be so nice to be 100% finished!
This morning I had a seriously awesome experience. This whole weekend I was feeling slightly discouraged. I felt like things weren’t really coming together for me to be able to stay home. I started doubting and trying to take things into my own hands, thinking “Oh, maybe I could do this….or that.” And of course, no matter how I looked at it, it really wouldn’t work and the things that seemed to work, defeated the purpose. This morning I woke up so extremely depressed. The discouragement from the weekend had grown and I could no longer see God’s hand in anything. I got myself up and got ready. I was downstairs making our lunch for today and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I had not felt so down in such a long time. I asked the Lord, “Why? I don’t want to feel this way but I can’t see any solution.” On our way to work a beautiful spirit came over me and I have no doubt in my mind that what came over me was not from God himself. He reminded me of what Karissa said in service last night, about His eye being on the sparrow. How much more does He care for us? He reminded me that even though I have been drawing closer to Him that I have developed a spirit of contentment and that I should not be content with where I am in my relationship with Him, that He wants to be even closer to me. And finally, He reminded me that I have brought this discouragement on myself by doubting Him. That He is in control and He is working. I cannot express the feeling of relief and joy that came over me. He is truly amazing and His mercies are new each morning. I am in awe. Oh, how He loves us.
Friday, October 2, 2009
26 Days
Only 26 days! I cannot believe how time is just flying right by. The last couple weeks were gone before I knew it! I now know the hospital process which gives me a little confidence and boy, I’m ready. I cannot wait to hold this little baby that is going to (and already has) completely change our life forever. I will never be the same person again. I have a new identity, a new responsibility, and a new outlook. I’ve never been so protective over anything and I’ve never loved something so much that I haven’t even seen. God is truly wonderful. He knew what he was doing when He thought out this process. Sure, there are ups and downs and times I think I’ll never be able to do this or go any longer but overall it’s all beautiful. My husband and I have drawn closer through it. It has increased our faith in God. We’ve learned to do things we never did before (like putting shelving in a cabinet – and yes, it was PERFECTLY level – so proud of that). I am looking forward to holding in our arms the one little reason for all these changes.
Someone very special to me has had a low-level in spirits. This person has always been a rock for me and I knew that in this little display of depression I wanted to be there for them. They are a wonderful child of God who strives daily to draw closer to Him. They are the kind of person that puts themself aside in order to do things for others to the glory of God. When I realized this friend was struggling, I immediately prayed for them, for God’s love to surround them and His joy to uplift them. I searched the scriptures and this touched me… For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11 (KJV) This individual’s discouragement was a result of well-doing. They were seeking God and they let the attitudes and opinions (or lack thereof) to discourage them. This scripture touched my heart because it was just another reminder that He is the reason, the only reason. He knows the thoughts He thinks toward us and those thoughts are the only thoughts that matter. Praise and recognition from peers and leaders are great but that’s not why we do it. We live for Him because we love Him and desire to draw closer to Him and to be more like Him. I hope that my light will shine to this individual so that they know His thoughts are all that matter in this life.
I am thankful for God’s grace and mercy and the peace He has given me on this beautiful autumn day. I came into work and a million things were thrown at me. I was overwhelmed and of course as if that weren’t enough, I was having really painful contractions. Yet somehow I remained calm and collected. I thank God for giving me peace at this stage of life. He knows JUST what we need and He is always on time.
Jesus knows just what I need
Oh, He knows just what I need
He satisfies and every need He supplies
He knows just what I need
Someone very special to me has had a low-level in spirits. This person has always been a rock for me and I knew that in this little display of depression I wanted to be there for them. They are a wonderful child of God who strives daily to draw closer to Him. They are the kind of person that puts themself aside in order to do things for others to the glory of God. When I realized this friend was struggling, I immediately prayed for them, for God’s love to surround them and His joy to uplift them. I searched the scriptures and this touched me… For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11 (KJV) This individual’s discouragement was a result of well-doing. They were seeking God and they let the attitudes and opinions (or lack thereof) to discourage them. This scripture touched my heart because it was just another reminder that He is the reason, the only reason. He knows the thoughts He thinks toward us and those thoughts are the only thoughts that matter. Praise and recognition from peers and leaders are great but that’s not why we do it. We live for Him because we love Him and desire to draw closer to Him and to be more like Him. I hope that my light will shine to this individual so that they know His thoughts are all that matter in this life.
I am thankful for God’s grace and mercy and the peace He has given me on this beautiful autumn day. I came into work and a million things were thrown at me. I was overwhelmed and of course as if that weren’t enough, I was having really painful contractions. Yet somehow I remained calm and collected. I thank God for giving me peace at this stage of life. He knows JUST what we need and He is always on time.
Jesus knows just what I need
Oh, He knows just what I need
He satisfies and every need He supplies
He knows just what I need
Thursday, October 1, 2009
27 Days
October is finally here!
So much has happened over the past couple days…
On Tuesday I started having this horrible pain in my abdomen. I knew it wasn’t normal. I called the dr and sure enough, contractions. They told me to go to the hospital. Mom came and got me from work (I only work about like two miles from the hospital). We got there around 11am. The contractions were three minutes apart! They checked everything else yet and said that even though I was having contractions, I wasn’t having a baby…*sigh*….oh well, maybe soon. They sent me home and told me to rest. Resting helps stop the contractions but working full time doesn’t give me any time for relaxing!
While I was there at the hospital I got the test results back for the Cholestasis testing I had done. Negative!! Yay! Instead I have PUPPS. I don’t care what it’s called, it makes me itch like crazy! They prescribed something for the itching but it makes me tired. Which is better? I haven’t decided.
Monday night was SALT. I enjoy those meetings so much and I am so sad that I will miss the next meeting. I learn so much, not only about the Bible but also about myself in those meetings. I am trying to be more disciplined for myself and my family. There is no time for being lazy anymore. I can’t afford to be lazy. It’s time to grin and bear it! Not only will I get so much more achieved but it will also make me a better individual! God is so extremely good!
So much has happened over the past couple days…
On Tuesday I started having this horrible pain in my abdomen. I knew it wasn’t normal. I called the dr and sure enough, contractions. They told me to go to the hospital. Mom came and got me from work (I only work about like two miles from the hospital). We got there around 11am. The contractions were three minutes apart! They checked everything else yet and said that even though I was having contractions, I wasn’t having a baby…*sigh*….oh well, maybe soon. They sent me home and told me to rest. Resting helps stop the contractions but working full time doesn’t give me any time for relaxing!
While I was there at the hospital I got the test results back for the Cholestasis testing I had done. Negative!! Yay! Instead I have PUPPS. I don’t care what it’s called, it makes me itch like crazy! They prescribed something for the itching but it makes me tired. Which is better? I haven’t decided.
Monday night was SALT. I enjoy those meetings so much and I am so sad that I will miss the next meeting. I learn so much, not only about the Bible but also about myself in those meetings. I am trying to be more disciplined for myself and my family. There is no time for being lazy anymore. I can’t afford to be lazy. It’s time to grin and bear it! Not only will I get so much more achieved but it will also make me a better individual! God is so extremely good!
Monday, September 28, 2009
30 Days
Today is exactly one month from my due date! I am of course, hoping he comes a little sooner than that. Two weeks early would be nice!
Friday night we went to Toys R Us to buy the stroller we wanted. I did some serious research to find out which strollers had the best reviews for the price. We went to check it out and you should have seen us trying to figure the thing out! It was hilarious! We had no idea what we were doing. After about ten minutes we finally figured out how to collapse the stroller and how to (what is that called) “pop” it back up. We decided to go ahead and get it. We looked around a little bit more and found some gliders there. I really wanted to get a glider but they are so expensive! Even used gliders are expensive. I had pretty much settled in my mind that I would just get a regular rocking chair. Anyway, while we were at Toys R Us we saw they had two gliders. One (white wood and blue upholstery – it was ugly) had a clearance sticker on it. The other (dark wood with tan upholstery – it was beautiful) didn’t have any price on it. Danny asked someone and they said that both gliders were on clearance! Then they gave us coupons, discounts, etc. and by the time all those deductions were made on both the stroller and the glider, we left paying only what the stroller cost. It was like getting the glider for free! We were so excited! It looks great in his room. I can’t wait to use it.
Saturday Danny was helping move someone and so I cleaned out Dallas’ room and started washing his clothes. I can only imagine how long it’s going to take to fold all that little stuff! I also have to figure out how to organize it all in the closet. To be honest, I’m looking forward to it.
Shanen had her baby at 1am-ish on Saturday morning so we went to the hospital to see him. He is adorable. She is doing well and is in great spirits. It made me more anxious to have Dallas. I can’t wait to see who he is. To see what he looks like and to get to know his personality. With every day I am more and more ready! Next week will be 37 weeks, once I reach that I’m praying he comes!
Wow. God is truly amazing. His blessings are unbelievable. His love is astounding. He is perfect. I would love to know why He loves us so much. Every single day He reminds me of His love and compassion for me. That He recognizes my desire and is working it out. He has done so much and I have never had faith like this in my entire life!
I don’t know why Jesus’ loves me
I don’t know why he cares
I don’t know why he sacrificed His life
Oh, but I’m glad
So glad He did
Friday night we went to Toys R Us to buy the stroller we wanted. I did some serious research to find out which strollers had the best reviews for the price. We went to check it out and you should have seen us trying to figure the thing out! It was hilarious! We had no idea what we were doing. After about ten minutes we finally figured out how to collapse the stroller and how to (what is that called) “pop” it back up. We decided to go ahead and get it. We looked around a little bit more and found some gliders there. I really wanted to get a glider but they are so expensive! Even used gliders are expensive. I had pretty much settled in my mind that I would just get a regular rocking chair. Anyway, while we were at Toys R Us we saw they had two gliders. One (white wood and blue upholstery – it was ugly) had a clearance sticker on it. The other (dark wood with tan upholstery – it was beautiful) didn’t have any price on it. Danny asked someone and they said that both gliders were on clearance! Then they gave us coupons, discounts, etc. and by the time all those deductions were made on both the stroller and the glider, we left paying only what the stroller cost. It was like getting the glider for free! We were so excited! It looks great in his room. I can’t wait to use it.
Saturday Danny was helping move someone and so I cleaned out Dallas’ room and started washing his clothes. I can only imagine how long it’s going to take to fold all that little stuff! I also have to figure out how to organize it all in the closet. To be honest, I’m looking forward to it.
Shanen had her baby at 1am-ish on Saturday morning so we went to the hospital to see him. He is adorable. She is doing well and is in great spirits. It made me more anxious to have Dallas. I can’t wait to see who he is. To see what he looks like and to get to know his personality. With every day I am more and more ready! Next week will be 37 weeks, once I reach that I’m praying he comes!
Wow. God is truly amazing. His blessings are unbelievable. His love is astounding. He is perfect. I would love to know why He loves us so much. Every single day He reminds me of His love and compassion for me. That He recognizes my desire and is working it out. He has done so much and I have never had faith like this in my entire life!
I don’t know why Jesus’ loves me
I don’t know why he cares
I don’t know why he sacrificed His life
Oh, but I’m glad
So glad He did
Friday, September 25, 2009
33 Days
To do list (to get ready for Dallas)….
1. Finish packing hospital bag
2. Wash and put away his clothes
3. Wash his bedding
4. Put away everything from the shower
5. Finish thank you cards
6. Clean out the mess in his closet
7. Buy a travel system stroller
8. Set up the car-seat
Wow. There is so much to do! I was hoping to get all of this done this weekend. Not sure if that’s really possible….we'll see!
At my last doctor appointment on Wednesday the 23rd the doctor told me that he is in position and is making his way slowly. She said it’s safe to say that I won’t go past my due date, HALLELUJAH! I also explained to her that I’ve been having some serious problems with itching all over the past month or so and she did some tests to see if I have Cholestasis, a liver disease that happens only in pregnancy due to the high amounts of pregnancy hormones. It’s something that usually goes away a few days after delivery. The only thing to be of concern on is there is a very slight increase in chance (about 1%) of stillbirth, which is why if I do have the liver disease and have not delivered by my 39th week they will induce me. I am waiting to hear the results of the test. I’m not worried, I know that regardless of the outcome of the test that God has His hand on me and on Dallas. Not to mention he blessed me with some good doctors who know what they’re doing. My doctor said she just delivered a patient with Cholestasis and has another patient due soon with Cholestasis.
God is continuing to open doors for Danny and me. It’s amazing how He gives us constant reminders that He’s working things out and that He cares. We serve SUCH a loving God! I have put my complete trust and faith in Him for every situation of life. He has never done me wrong even though I don’t deserve what He gives me. It’s so hard to comprehend that the one who gave me life loves me enough to pour out blessings and be faithful even when I haven’t been a faithful servant. He is showing me His mercy in a way I’ve never known. I want to live my life wholeheartedly for Him. Danny and I were talking about how outside of work most of our time is spend doing “Church stuff.” We came to the conclusion that we like that. We enjoy the fact that we spend our extra time working in the kingdom! Everything else (careers, education, things, activities) will pass away but the time we invest in working for Him will not pass away! We will see the benefit of our labor on the other side, is there anything more important? He is a perfect God!
Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
Altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
1. Finish packing hospital bag
2. Wash and put away his clothes
3. Wash his bedding
4. Put away everything from the shower
5. Finish thank you cards
6. Clean out the mess in his closet
7. Buy a travel system stroller
8. Set up the car-seat
Wow. There is so much to do! I was hoping to get all of this done this weekend. Not sure if that’s really possible….we'll see!
At my last doctor appointment on Wednesday the 23rd the doctor told me that he is in position and is making his way slowly. She said it’s safe to say that I won’t go past my due date, HALLELUJAH! I also explained to her that I’ve been having some serious problems with itching all over the past month or so and she did some tests to see if I have Cholestasis, a liver disease that happens only in pregnancy due to the high amounts of pregnancy hormones. It’s something that usually goes away a few days after delivery. The only thing to be of concern on is there is a very slight increase in chance (about 1%) of stillbirth, which is why if I do have the liver disease and have not delivered by my 39th week they will induce me. I am waiting to hear the results of the test. I’m not worried, I know that regardless of the outcome of the test that God has His hand on me and on Dallas. Not to mention he blessed me with some good doctors who know what they’re doing. My doctor said she just delivered a patient with Cholestasis and has another patient due soon with Cholestasis.
God is continuing to open doors for Danny and me. It’s amazing how He gives us constant reminders that He’s working things out and that He cares. We serve SUCH a loving God! I have put my complete trust and faith in Him for every situation of life. He has never done me wrong even though I don’t deserve what He gives me. It’s so hard to comprehend that the one who gave me life loves me enough to pour out blessings and be faithful even when I haven’t been a faithful servant. He is showing me His mercy in a way I’ve never known. I want to live my life wholeheartedly for Him. Danny and I were talking about how outside of work most of our time is spend doing “Church stuff.” We came to the conclusion that we like that. We enjoy the fact that we spend our extra time working in the kingdom! Everything else (careers, education, things, activities) will pass away but the time we invest in working for Him will not pass away! We will see the benefit of our labor on the other side, is there anything more important? He is a perfect God!
Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
Altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
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