So I think I was off on my last post.... I said twenty days but it was actually 21.
Yesterday I had an appointment with my favorite person, Bonnie (she’s awesome). She listened to his heartbeat and said he’s still got great oxygen flow. His heart rate was 150! Then she checked and I am 2 cm dilated! Yay! She told me I could stay at 2 cm for a while. I don’t care though, at least something is happening! I really feel like it’s going to be soon though. I am still having a lot of contractions and last night was the first time that they were bad enough to actually wake me up. I think he should come this weekend/next week lol. I’m ready and I think he’s ready too. Every time I have a contraction he goes nuts...poor little guy.
I still have a few things left to do that I have purposed in my mind to accomplish this weekend…
1. Finish folding his clothes
2. Finish packing the hospital bag
3. Hang the rest of the stuff on the walls in his room
4. Put the stroller in the trunk
Then we will be finished and officially ready :)
Last night Danny and I stopped at the grocery store to pick up some things for the Youth Fall Harvest Party tonight. While we were there I ran into someone who used to work out at Curves. She is my age and we always got along really good. She has a little boy now who is almost two and is so cute. I had talked to her right after he was born and she told me she was a stay at home mom and loving it. I asked her yesterday if she was still at home and she said, “Oh yeah, I wouldn’t have it any other way.” I thought about her and others who have been given the opportunity and it touched me. God continues to show me his love and mercy through others. Just when I need uplifted and some encouragement, it came. The song Nothing Is Impossible has really been on my heart all morning. What he’s done for others He can do for me. We serve an incredible God who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think (Ephesians 3:20). His love is never ending and His faithfulness is overwhelming to me.
Nothing is impossible when you trust in God
Nothing is impossible when you lean upon His Word
It is no secret what God can do
What He’s done for others, He’ll do the same for you
Nothing is impossible when you trust in God
Friday, October 9, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
20 Days
Twenty????? That seems so close. God knew I needed that feeling today. I have not slept at all the past few nights and my hands just ACHE non-stop. And if those annoyances weren’t enough, the contractions seem to get worse and worse. I feel like this will never end. But then I look at how many days are left and I’m like, I can do this for another 20 days if I have to. I know though that tonight when I can’t sleep (again) I will be done and want him out now lol.
I was supposed to have a dr appt today but they called and rescheduled for tomorrow. I PRAY that when I get there they will tell me that I’m dilated. I need to see some progress lol. The one positive thing about going tomorrow is I get to see my favorite midwife, Bonnie.
Gotta keep it short today because I have to go work in the library in a few minutes but how can I close this without giving God praise? For His goodness and His mercy…for this beautiful day and even the yummy lunch I had lol. He knows our desires! I can’t wait until He works out the largest desire of my heart. It burns within me and gives me joy. When I think about the blessed opportunity that could be afforded to me I am overwhelmed! I know He’ll work it out and I’m patiently waiting to see His beautiful ways of unfolding things. He is good.
I was supposed to have a dr appt today but they called and rescheduled for tomorrow. I PRAY that when I get there they will tell me that I’m dilated. I need to see some progress lol. The one positive thing about going tomorrow is I get to see my favorite midwife, Bonnie.
Gotta keep it short today because I have to go work in the library in a few minutes but how can I close this without giving God praise? For His goodness and His mercy…for this beautiful day and even the yummy lunch I had lol. He knows our desires! I can’t wait until He works out the largest desire of my heart. It burns within me and gives me joy. When I think about the blessed opportunity that could be afforded to me I am overwhelmed! I know He’ll work it out and I’m patiently waiting to see His beautiful ways of unfolding things. He is good.
Monday, October 5, 2009
23 Days
Still no Dallas *sigh* but he has to come in the next month lol. So, that’s a relief. I have a doctor appointment on Wednesday, hoping they’ll be able to give me some idea of whether it’s sooner or later. They already told me they thought it would be “sooner” but you know how that goes. I think they just try to get your hopes up sometimes. I can’t decide what I’m looking forward to most about not being pregnant….sleeping on my stomach, having feeling in my hands again, not feeling the bathroom is my second home, or not being so swollen. I think I really just want Dallas. I want to hold him and see him. That's what I'm looking forward to the most.
This weekend we got a lot accomplished (YAY!). We finished running errands which took almost all day Saturday. We got the car seat all hooked up in our car, it looks so cute! Then last night we got one wall in his room finished. We put up wooden letters that we spray painted black. They letters spell out his name. It looks so good. Even better than what I was expecting. All that’s left to do is to finish folding his clothes and put them away. It will be so nice to be 100% finished!
This morning I had a seriously awesome experience. This whole weekend I was feeling slightly discouraged. I felt like things weren’t really coming together for me to be able to stay home. I started doubting and trying to take things into my own hands, thinking “Oh, maybe I could do this….or that.” And of course, no matter how I looked at it, it really wouldn’t work and the things that seemed to work, defeated the purpose. This morning I woke up so extremely depressed. The discouragement from the weekend had grown and I could no longer see God’s hand in anything. I got myself up and got ready. I was downstairs making our lunch for today and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I had not felt so down in such a long time. I asked the Lord, “Why? I don’t want to feel this way but I can’t see any solution.” On our way to work a beautiful spirit came over me and I have no doubt in my mind that what came over me was not from God himself. He reminded me of what Karissa said in service last night, about His eye being on the sparrow. How much more does He care for us? He reminded me that even though I have been drawing closer to Him that I have developed a spirit of contentment and that I should not be content with where I am in my relationship with Him, that He wants to be even closer to me. And finally, He reminded me that I have brought this discouragement on myself by doubting Him. That He is in control and He is working. I cannot express the feeling of relief and joy that came over me. He is truly amazing and His mercies are new each morning. I am in awe. Oh, how He loves us.
This weekend we got a lot accomplished (YAY!). We finished running errands which took almost all day Saturday. We got the car seat all hooked up in our car, it looks so cute! Then last night we got one wall in his room finished. We put up wooden letters that we spray painted black. They letters spell out his name. It looks so good. Even better than what I was expecting. All that’s left to do is to finish folding his clothes and put them away. It will be so nice to be 100% finished!
This morning I had a seriously awesome experience. This whole weekend I was feeling slightly discouraged. I felt like things weren’t really coming together for me to be able to stay home. I started doubting and trying to take things into my own hands, thinking “Oh, maybe I could do this….or that.” And of course, no matter how I looked at it, it really wouldn’t work and the things that seemed to work, defeated the purpose. This morning I woke up so extremely depressed. The discouragement from the weekend had grown and I could no longer see God’s hand in anything. I got myself up and got ready. I was downstairs making our lunch for today and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I had not felt so down in such a long time. I asked the Lord, “Why? I don’t want to feel this way but I can’t see any solution.” On our way to work a beautiful spirit came over me and I have no doubt in my mind that what came over me was not from God himself. He reminded me of what Karissa said in service last night, about His eye being on the sparrow. How much more does He care for us? He reminded me that even though I have been drawing closer to Him that I have developed a spirit of contentment and that I should not be content with where I am in my relationship with Him, that He wants to be even closer to me. And finally, He reminded me that I have brought this discouragement on myself by doubting Him. That He is in control and He is working. I cannot express the feeling of relief and joy that came over me. He is truly amazing and His mercies are new each morning. I am in awe. Oh, how He loves us.
Friday, October 2, 2009
26 Days
Only 26 days! I cannot believe how time is just flying right by. The last couple weeks were gone before I knew it! I now know the hospital process which gives me a little confidence and boy, I’m ready. I cannot wait to hold this little baby that is going to (and already has) completely change our life forever. I will never be the same person again. I have a new identity, a new responsibility, and a new outlook. I’ve never been so protective over anything and I’ve never loved something so much that I haven’t even seen. God is truly wonderful. He knew what he was doing when He thought out this process. Sure, there are ups and downs and times I think I’ll never be able to do this or go any longer but overall it’s all beautiful. My husband and I have drawn closer through it. It has increased our faith in God. We’ve learned to do things we never did before (like putting shelving in a cabinet – and yes, it was PERFECTLY level – so proud of that). I am looking forward to holding in our arms the one little reason for all these changes.
Someone very special to me has had a low-level in spirits. This person has always been a rock for me and I knew that in this little display of depression I wanted to be there for them. They are a wonderful child of God who strives daily to draw closer to Him. They are the kind of person that puts themself aside in order to do things for others to the glory of God. When I realized this friend was struggling, I immediately prayed for them, for God’s love to surround them and His joy to uplift them. I searched the scriptures and this touched me… For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11 (KJV) This individual’s discouragement was a result of well-doing. They were seeking God and they let the attitudes and opinions (or lack thereof) to discourage them. This scripture touched my heart because it was just another reminder that He is the reason, the only reason. He knows the thoughts He thinks toward us and those thoughts are the only thoughts that matter. Praise and recognition from peers and leaders are great but that’s not why we do it. We live for Him because we love Him and desire to draw closer to Him and to be more like Him. I hope that my light will shine to this individual so that they know His thoughts are all that matter in this life.
I am thankful for God’s grace and mercy and the peace He has given me on this beautiful autumn day. I came into work and a million things were thrown at me. I was overwhelmed and of course as if that weren’t enough, I was having really painful contractions. Yet somehow I remained calm and collected. I thank God for giving me peace at this stage of life. He knows JUST what we need and He is always on time.
Jesus knows just what I need
Oh, He knows just what I need
He satisfies and every need He supplies
He knows just what I need
Someone very special to me has had a low-level in spirits. This person has always been a rock for me and I knew that in this little display of depression I wanted to be there for them. They are a wonderful child of God who strives daily to draw closer to Him. They are the kind of person that puts themself aside in order to do things for others to the glory of God. When I realized this friend was struggling, I immediately prayed for them, for God’s love to surround them and His joy to uplift them. I searched the scriptures and this touched me… For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11 (KJV) This individual’s discouragement was a result of well-doing. They were seeking God and they let the attitudes and opinions (or lack thereof) to discourage them. This scripture touched my heart because it was just another reminder that He is the reason, the only reason. He knows the thoughts He thinks toward us and those thoughts are the only thoughts that matter. Praise and recognition from peers and leaders are great but that’s not why we do it. We live for Him because we love Him and desire to draw closer to Him and to be more like Him. I hope that my light will shine to this individual so that they know His thoughts are all that matter in this life.
I am thankful for God’s grace and mercy and the peace He has given me on this beautiful autumn day. I came into work and a million things were thrown at me. I was overwhelmed and of course as if that weren’t enough, I was having really painful contractions. Yet somehow I remained calm and collected. I thank God for giving me peace at this stage of life. He knows JUST what we need and He is always on time.
Jesus knows just what I need
Oh, He knows just what I need
He satisfies and every need He supplies
He knows just what I need
Thursday, October 1, 2009
27 Days
October is finally here!
So much has happened over the past couple days…
On Tuesday I started having this horrible pain in my abdomen. I knew it wasn’t normal. I called the dr and sure enough, contractions. They told me to go to the hospital. Mom came and got me from work (I only work about like two miles from the hospital). We got there around 11am. The contractions were three minutes apart! They checked everything else yet and said that even though I was having contractions, I wasn’t having a baby…*sigh*….oh well, maybe soon. They sent me home and told me to rest. Resting helps stop the contractions but working full time doesn’t give me any time for relaxing!
While I was there at the hospital I got the test results back for the Cholestasis testing I had done. Negative!! Yay! Instead I have PUPPS. I don’t care what it’s called, it makes me itch like crazy! They prescribed something for the itching but it makes me tired. Which is better? I haven’t decided.
Monday night was SALT. I enjoy those meetings so much and I am so sad that I will miss the next meeting. I learn so much, not only about the Bible but also about myself in those meetings. I am trying to be more disciplined for myself and my family. There is no time for being lazy anymore. I can’t afford to be lazy. It’s time to grin and bear it! Not only will I get so much more achieved but it will also make me a better individual! God is so extremely good!
So much has happened over the past couple days…
On Tuesday I started having this horrible pain in my abdomen. I knew it wasn’t normal. I called the dr and sure enough, contractions. They told me to go to the hospital. Mom came and got me from work (I only work about like two miles from the hospital). We got there around 11am. The contractions were three minutes apart! They checked everything else yet and said that even though I was having contractions, I wasn’t having a baby…*sigh*….oh well, maybe soon. They sent me home and told me to rest. Resting helps stop the contractions but working full time doesn’t give me any time for relaxing!
While I was there at the hospital I got the test results back for the Cholestasis testing I had done. Negative!! Yay! Instead I have PUPPS. I don’t care what it’s called, it makes me itch like crazy! They prescribed something for the itching but it makes me tired. Which is better? I haven’t decided.
Monday night was SALT. I enjoy those meetings so much and I am so sad that I will miss the next meeting. I learn so much, not only about the Bible but also about myself in those meetings. I am trying to be more disciplined for myself and my family. There is no time for being lazy anymore. I can’t afford to be lazy. It’s time to grin and bear it! Not only will I get so much more achieved but it will also make me a better individual! God is so extremely good!
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